Mr. Gu, stop being abusive, Miss Xu is marrying your brother.

hotel.

Xu Yan squatted in the bathroom and let the water from the shower wash her away.

Hugging her back tightly, Xu Yan's nails left red marks on her snow-white skin.

In fact... Xu Yan's hanging heart was relieved to know that the person who was there that night six years ago was Gu Chenyan. At least... she no longer had to bear the guilt, no longer had to feel that she had slept with someone else, and she no longer felt sorry for Gu Chenyan. fair.

But the knot in her heart over the past six years has made her suffer all the time.

She wanted to kick those memories out of her mind, and even tried MECT (electroconvulsive shock, which causes people to lose part of their memory) treatment, but it didn't work.

She became more and more numb, and the things that should be forgotten became clearer and clearer, while the things that should not be forgotten gradually became blurred.

"Xu Yan, you are amazing. A daughter from a poor family has lived a very fulfilling life for twenty-one years by pretending to be a rich girl!"

"Isn't this prison uncomfortable?"

"Come, show me a good look in the mirror, you are really dirty."

"Come here and help her clean up!"

"No... no, please..."

Xu Yan struggled desperately and pulled her hair desperately.

Don't think about it, don't think about it.

But why are those memories still in my mind?

Xu Yan was so frightened that she cried and wanted to escape from the bathroom.

It had been a long time since she had remembered what happened in prison, so why did she suddenly think of it again today.

She ran out of the bathroom in fear, slipped and fell to the floor. Her knees were instantly red and swollen, and the pain made her burst into tears.

Why should I remember it.

"Get out, get out of my mind, get out!" Xu Yan cried and screamed, struggled back and huddled in the corner.

During the five years in prison, Gu Zheyu had people take good care of her.

What Xu Yan experienced was torture that normal people could not imagine.

In prison... all the evil in human nature seems to be infinitely magnified. They have been suppressed for too long and their freedom has been restricted. They can only find Xu Yan as an outlet for their resentment.

They bullied her, humiliated her, tortured her...

Xu Yan committed suicide in prison countless times, but was rescued time and time again.

It's like starting a cycle that starts over and over again.

"No, no, please..."

"Save me, Gu Chenyan...save me."

Xu Yan hid in the corner, crying and struggling. Her feet were kicked by herself, and the pain woke her up.

Gu Chenyan...

Even when she was scared, she still called Gu Chenyan's name.

She had already regarded Gu Chenyan as her salvation.

She had long... fallen.

Tears were boiling and Xu Yan hugged herself in a daze.

Although she knew it was dangerous to fall in love with Gu Chenyan, she was still hopelessly attracted to him.

She couldn't, couldn't lose Gu Chenyan.

She will die.

"Chen Yan..." Xu Yan got up in panic, crying and wanting to call Gu Chenyan.

She was still scared.

scared.

But when she picked up the phone, Xu Yan still hesitated.

What on earth is she going to do.

"Yanyan..."

Gu Chenyan didn't leave. He sat in the car for a long time. Uneasy, he went upstairs but didn't dare to knock on the door.

After standing outside the door for a long time, Gu Chenyan heard movement inside the house, as well as Xu Yan's cry.

"Yanyan?" Gu Chenyan was a little panicked and tried to knock on the door.

"Yanyan!" Gu Chenyan was anxious to open the door and wanted to call the hotel manager to ask them to open the door.

Before the call was dialed, Xu Yan opened the door.

Xu Yan's hair was very wet and still dripping. The pajamas she was wearing were completely soaked. She stood barefoot on the floor, and her knees and feet were bruised.

She looked at Gu Chenyan with red eyes.

For a moment, Gu Chenyan felt like he was about to suffocate.

Stepping into the room, Gu Chenyan closed the door and held Xu Yan in his arms. "I am here……"

Xu Yan grabbed Gu Chenyan's clothes tightly and took a long breath before speaking. "Why did you come, why did you come...why didn't you find me earlier..."

Gu Chenyan knew why Xu Yan came here. It was about why he found her six years later.

Why did she suffer so much for the past six years?

His eyes were red and burning, and Gu Chenyan couldn't control his tears at all.

Holding Xu Yan tightly, Gu Chenyan almost wanted to rub her into his body. "I'm sorry...I was wrong, I was wrong..."

It's all his fault.

Why is he late.

Why...appeared next to her six years later.

Xu Yan could finally cry loudly, as if she wanted to cry out all the grievances she had suffered in the past six years.

Gu Chenyan just held her and let her cry.

Maybe crying will make you feel better.

These years, she has suppressed too much.

Xu Yan cried for a long time, until her voice became hoarse and she was tired of crying, and then she let go of Gu Chenyan's clothes.

"Yanyan, I will always be by your side and never leave." Gu Chenyan choked with sobs. "If you drive me away, I won't leave."

Xu Yan shook her head vigorously. "Liar, you are a liar..."

"I'm not..." Gu Chenyan took a deep breath and held Xu Yan's hand tighter. "I'm not……"

"Why did you leave that night?" Xu Yan bit Gu Chenyan's shoulder, biting hard.

Gu Chenyan closed his eyes forbearingly and allowed Xu Yan to bite him without resisting or letting go.

"Sorry……"

He hated himself, hated himself for being so self-righteous that night, thinking that someone was plotting against him, and left in disgust without even looking at Xu Yan.

"Don't say you're sorry..." Xu Yan hated hearing sorry.

"Yanyan, I can make it up to you no matter what, okay?" Gu Chenyan carried Xu Yan back to bed, took a towel to wipe her hair, and asked cautiously.

Xu Yan said nothing and let Gu Chenyan wipe her hair.

Gu Chenyan squatted in front of Xu Yan, brought the medical kit over, and carefully treated the injuries on her knees and feet.

"Doesn't it hurt?" Gu Chenyan asked distressedly.

Xu Yan shook her head numbly. "I didn't feel any pain when I cut the blood vessels..."

Xu Yan put her scars in front of Gu Chenyan without hesitation.

The scars on her wrists were healed countless times and cut open countless times.

Gu Chenyan lowered his head and grabbed the quilt beside Xu Yan with both hands.

His body is shaking...

I don’t know if it’s anger, tolerance, or hatred for myself.

"Yanyan..." After a moment, Gu Chenyan spoke in a hoarse voice, held Xu Yan's hand, and kissed her scar. "I will protect you..."

"Let me think about it..." Xu Yan looked away.

Even though she knew she couldn't live without Gu Chenyan, she still had to prepare for the worst.

She needs to think about it, be quiet, and sort out her life...

Think carefully about her future path.

"Okay...I'll wait for you as long as you want." Gu Chenyan raised his head and looked into Xu Yan's eyes.

Xu Yan didn't dare to look at Gu Chenyan, his eyes were too deep, as if he was going to drown her.

"Have a good rest." Gu Chenyan stood up and turned around to get a hair dryer to dry her hair.

Xu Yan thought Gu Chenyan was leaving, so she got out of bed in panic and hugged Gu Chenyan from behind, crying. "Don't go...I'm scared."

Gu Chenyan's body was so stiff that he felt so distressed that he felt suffocated.

"I won't leave, even if you chase me away..." Gu Chenyan turned around and held Xu Yan in his arms, letting her stand on his feet, and took her to the bathroom to dry her hair.