NOVEL SIMPLE Chapter 20: I want to kill him
"Do what I ordered you to do."
"Yes..."
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"You want me to acknowledge you?
You aren't worthy of that, remember you are only alive because I let you live.
" yes..."
.........
"Your only purpose is to do what task I've given you to, that is your only purpose."
".....yes..."
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"Friend? Do you have a friend?
Don't worry, I will meet his family and force him to transfer from another school, you don't deserve it."
"......."
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"You are disgraceful on my name, stay on behind my back, act like your only a shadow. Don't stir some trouble."
"...yes..."
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"Don't beg me to love you, don't even think of making me acknowledge you... Yuuji, remember...."
I look up at the person in the eyes.
"You are the reason why my wife die."
"...yes, dad... I'm sorry for being alive...."
I said when I'm ten years old
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*gasp!*
"Huff....huff...huff...huff...haaa..."
I gripped the quilt while sweating a lot.
I could feel my back has a cold sweat. Lots of sweat trickled down on my cheek.
I look at the time on my phone.
"...3:03 am...."
I inhale and exhale, I keep trying to calm myself.
"...shit..."
I wish, I didn't have to sleep...
It seems that after pretending to be sleeping I really did sleep.
I stand up and decided to get a drink.
Once I open the refrigerator, I immediately drank a bottle of water.
Gulp gulp gulp gulp gulp...
"Haaa....fucking shit...."
I throw the empty bottle into the trashcan.
I decided to wash my face to freshen up.
Splash...
"Haa..."
I took a towel and look at the mirror, I was about to wipe the water but I was startled at the reflection on the mirror.
Black hair, hazelnut eyes devoid of life, he was a kid with many bruises all over his body including his face which has a bandage on his head.
It was me when I was a kid.
"DAMN IT!"
Due to my surprise and irritation, I smash the mirror which shattered and scattered around the floor.
".......man...I want to go to Orc club already..."
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I was already walking at the gate of Kuoh academy, there I saw the three perverts where Issei desperately explained everything. It must be around this time that Issei asked them if they remember Yuuma san.
If today is the day I'm in a good mood, I would probably startle them by surprising the shit out of them but...
Man...I don't think I can face everyone right now.
I...afraid they might hate me seeing this side of me...I'm actually worthless after all...
They only like me because I'm imitating Yato from noragami albeit not perfectly but at least, they won't see this disgusting side of me.
But I still have to act, If they notice this and found the true me, they will probably start to hate me...
Yosh!
Cheer!
I run into them as I crash my body to Issei who was frustrated at the two.
"Yo~masochist pervert, Four-eyes, ash blady!"
"Ah The king amongst the Harem king, 5yen god, good morning."
Ash baldy said, I smile at him while four-eyes adjusted his eye-glasses.
"Good morning ash bald, four eyes, and....huh? What is happening to you?"
"Yato...do you remember..."
"He wants to ask if you remember this girl name Yuuma chan."
Four eyes said, I pretended to look confused and tilted my head telling that what do they mean.
I look at Issei who looks so hopeless and frustrated not knowing what to do, he was confused at what was happening.
"...I swear guys... I have a girlfriend name yuuma, I also really have her contact info...."
"But there's no contact number of her Issei Kun."
"Heh~.... Hmm... Ah! What beautiful boobs!"
The three instantly look at the place where I pointed at, coincidentally the name kanase was there too which their eyes was pointed at her.
Well, at this time, I pulled Issei's wrist escaping from the two.
"Dude, What's the matter."
"Does this Yuuma chan have black hair and purple eyes and look innocent?"
"How do you... Wait you remember her?!"
Issei said while he grabs my shoulder.
"Uhh..no, I only guess it, I mean black hair and purple eyes is kind of common? So, maybe your imaginary girlfriend is like that too..."
"...imaginary...no... That...dude, I swear..."
"If she's true then what happens to her?"
"Rias gremory senpai...."
"What does Rias chan have to do with it?"
"...she might know something..."
Ah, of course, he witnesses her in that appearance, and of course, he wants some answer...
Man, my brain is not working right now...
We continue to walk until we reach our classroom, the lesson is boring not until...
"Kyaah!!!"
"The prince is here ahhh!!!"
This seems fast forward, this scene is supposed to be on the 3rd day of school. Because the 2nd day was when Issei got stabbed by Donahseek.
I guess the story rushes a little bit.
.well, it will still be the same, issei will become the pawn of Rias.
Not long after, a young boy wearing a school uniform with blond hair and blue eyes, there is a mole near in his eye. He waved at everyone then asked if issei is here.
Which is suprised Issei, Kiba then asks him to go to the Orc club and Rias chan wanted to meet him.
Issei gripped his fist and has a determination of finding an answer.
I'll just sleep in class, At first, I want to go to the Orc club but the moment I am right now is something I don't want them to see.
That's why I waited until the whole class is over.
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*issei POV*
"Fallen angel...?"
"Yes, Amano, Yuuma is a fallen angel."
Gremory senpai explain to me why she dated me, the purpose is killing me because of this sacred gear in my body.
I still couldn't believe it after hearing those...
'So yuuma chan dated me for killing me huh...'
After explaining everything, Gremory senpai raised my hand and focus so I could open my sacred gear.
I couldn't focus though, I could see her black undie which failed me to focus.
Black...it's so mature...
After everything, I join her peerage and decided to go.
While walking in the hallway, I saw Yato walking, going to leave at school.
I notice this even earlier in the morning.
His action is to force, and right now, he was like a man who's down to earth, thinking a little of himself.
He was like a person who will say "I don't deserve them"
Man....
I wonder what happens.
"Yo, 5 yen god."
He looks at me and his sad eyes turn bright.
His acting is extraordinary.
Which is creeping me, like really...
"Yo~ masochist pervert~!"
"Come on, how many times I have to tell you that I'm not a masochist."
"Eh~ you like getting hurt right? I mean every time you got beaten up on that dojo, you will come again right~?"
"Oh, shut up dude! So, what happens?"
"What do you mean?"
He looks at me as if he doesn't understand me.
"Don't act like you don't understand dude. Tell me, I might be able to help."
"Seriously, this personality of yours is why everyone becomes friends with you."
"What?"
"Nah, nothing, I just have a nightmare which brings me into a bad mood."
"What kind of ni-"
Before I could finish my word I hear a boy whispering at us.
"Tsk, look at that guy who is a self-proclaimed god, he doesn't know his place at all..."
"Right, I heard he was always with Toujou Koneko...huh!!! How dare he! Look at him, isn't he ugly?"
"Tch, I even heard he came into contact with the most beautiful girl here, rias gremory senpai..."
"Damn bastard, and then his delivery god, and this is so annoying!'
I got angry after hearing that thing, due to me becoming a devil my senses increased and I overheard them.
"that bastard... Hey, Yato, do you know others bad mouthing at you?"
"Hm? Yeah, I know."
I widen my eyes in surprise.
"Then, why aren't you fighting? Don't you hate it?"
"Nah man...I don't hate it, of course, that doesn't mean I like it. I don't like hearing it."
"You don't hate it but also don't like it what?"
"Hey, hate and dislikes are both different things."
"I see, so you never hate someone?"
"Yeah, I never...no, I hate one person."
"Oh?"
"Yeah...but that person died due to heart failure.
I just stared at his cold body back then you know, I still remember how I was staring at him not crying, I just look at my hand.
And then I thought, " how I wish I would be the one to end his life."
I widen my eyes after Yato said that, I couldn't believe what he said, I looked at him and saw his serious face full of hatred in his eyes. This is the first time seeing the side of him.
But, he is still not finished, he continues.
"Seriously, I wish, he didn't die on natural death, I want to crush him to death, I want to kill him.
I wish I could strangle him to death."
My heart started to raise as I could feel deep hatred in his voice.
What happens for him to feel like that towards the person?
"...who is this person?"
"My 'dad'."