Secrets (Ruin My Life) – Lookism [BL]

“Let’s end this.”

Daniel said this to his boyfriend… or sex friend, to be precise. The man in front of him, who looked colder than an iceberg in a snow storm, only gave him a snort as he kept looking a Newtube video on his phone.

“Dammit, I’m fucking serious, Gun!”

He slammed his hand impatiently on the dining table, giving the other a warning and to listen to him seriously. Hearing the loud bang on the room, Gun moved his gaze slowly to meet with Daniel’s and spoke, “What the fuck wrong with you, Daniel? You’ve been acting like a bitch lately.”

“I know right.” He sarcastically smiled, “Now that I’m acting like a bitch, I want us to stop.”

Gun frowned his eyebrows and carelessly throw his phone somewhere to the floor. He straightened his back and cupped his chin. “What is it that you want to stop?” His voice was low and somehow the room’s air started to suffocate Daniel.

Daniel watched him closely as he knew that this man only pretended to listen.  After almost a year being together, Daniel already knew that Gun would never love anyone apart of himself. Hell, at some point, he was even certain that the word ‘love’ was never existed on Gun’s dictionary.

See? I’m the fool here. He thought sadly.

“I don’t want to be your sex friend anymore. I’m done.”

Hearing the words, Gun suddenly let out a big laughter. He even shed a little bit of tears from it. Oh shit, if only he was stronger than Gun in fight, Daniel would’ve jumped at that man already. Looking at that maniac, he felt disgusted at himself for willingly spread his legs for too many times.

“You’re so funny,” Gun finally able to control his laughter and continued, “I don’t know that you want to be my boyfriend that badly?? Sure then. You can say to your stupid friends that we’re dating or whatever it is.”

He muttered to himself so that Daniel couldn’t hear it, “Man, throwing tantrums like a little bitch, heh, how cute…” He almost impulsively jumped to the younger one to do him, but then Daniel spoke coldly, “No, Gun. What I mean is that I’m leaving. I don’t want play with you anymore.”

You see, when I realized that I’ve fallen for you… There’s no happiness. Instead, I felt miserable and scared. I’ve already betrayed my friends once for screwing around with you. And now, love? What kind of friend am I?

The unspoken words almost made him cried, but he held it in. He didn’t want to show his weakness anymore to Gun. Now that he already made up his mind to go in separate way, any weaknesses would put his friends in dangers. He knew how cruel Gun was, he never hesitated to do anything as long as he won. What if Gun decided to manipulate his feelings to hurt his own friends? Daniel would rather die.

“Remember our deals? One, if one side decides not to play anymore, the other have to accept without asking for reasons. Two, these dirty secrets, we will to bring it to our graves.”

With that, Daniel stood up from his chair and ready to walk away from the table. However, the cold voice from the older sent a shiver to his body.

“Do you find another man that can satisfy your body better than me?” Gun’s head was lowered as he stared at his own feet. He didn’t even look at him, but Daniel knew that Gun was angry. But what if he was angry? From the start, they only did this to play around.

“Fuck. Answer me!!” With an inhuman speed, Gun grabbed roughly at Daniel’s collar. His eyes reflected a madness, an expression that was too familiar to Daniel. He had seen it in the past how these eyes gazed at him angrily whenever Daniel failed to satisfy him on bed. Just like a beast who was disappointed on his hunt.

But, why would he be so mad at him leaving? This deal was made by Gun himself and Daniel only followed along. He didn’t have the right to be angry!

“Let go.” Daniel said, “The deal stated that one have to acc-“

!

Before Daniel finished his words, Gun had forcefully slammed him to the dining table. Daniel’s sight was blurry from the impact, but then Gun, losing his cool, had already chocked him with his hands.

“Ugh!” Daniel stared shockingly at this man.

“FUCK THAT DEALS!!” Gun screamed as he looked down to the handsome, yet fragile man. “Let me tell you. Number 0, number 1 and 2 are bullshit if I say so!”

He couldn’t clearly hear what Gun was saying. One thing for sure, Daniel tried to break free, but rapidly losing his power from the lack of air. He tried to gasp for breath, but again, it failed miserably. The only thing he could do was to dig his ten nails to Gun’s wrists as he losing his vision.

Am I going to die?

Now, he didn’t even have the energy to dig his nails, resulting in his hands that fell down limply to his side. When he thought that he was surely going to hell, Gun finally let go of his hands.

“Who is he?!” Gun grabbed Daniel’s collar once again and lifted him to match his eye level. Of course, Daniel couldn’t answer him as he frantically gasped for breath. His face was red from the strangle and Gun’s hands even left a mark on his fair neck. He roughly shook Daniel once again, “Is it that boxer?! Or is it that boy from the Burn Knuckles?!! I’LL FUCKING DESTROY THEM!!”

Sensing the dangers for his friends, Daniel grabbed Gun’s wrist and shook his head repeatedly. “No! Don’t touch them, you asshole!” But before he could say more, Gun had delivered a powerful punch to his face. Daniel could only whimper as he losing his sense. When Gun released his grip, Daniel fell weakly to the dining table. Blood started to drip from his nose and he could taste iron in his mouth.

“Then is it someone else?” Gun said coldly as he looked at the man below. “You sure he can give you the pleasure like I do? I’ve known every inch of your body, Park Daniel.” Gun’s breath was getting heavier as he saw Daniel right now. His collar loosened up, revealing a flawless skin. His face was coloured by red from blood and his neck was marked by his own hands. And the most important was that his unfocused eyes.

It reminded him of one of their best nights together.

He could feel his pants was getting tighter. “Fuck you, Daniel.”

And so, he unzipped his pants to free his harden cock. Gun hastily reached down to Daniel’s pants. When he realized what was Gun going to do, Daniel tried to resist with his weak hands.

“Shit, don’t!”

Seeing the meaningless resistance only made Gun’s anger went up again. Daniel never did this kind of behaviour towards him. If anything, he would usually act shy and embarrassed at first, but then he would ask for more. Sometimes Daniel even surprised him on the bed.

Men and girls at his school would probably fantasize how the great Park Daniel would be on top of them, inserting his own cock to their holes, pounding them over and over again.

But the truth was here. Daniel loved it whenever Gun (or the sex toys) entered him. He would spread his ass and made lustful voice as he moaned for more. He acted like some innocence boy outside with his friends, when in fact, he was so addicted to sex.

And so, with these sensual memories of Daniel, he was turned on and started to succumb to desire. Gun trapped Daniel’s hands forcefully with his left hand while the right hand skilfully pulled down the pants along with the boxer. It revealed a flaccid penis which made Gun angrier.

When he thought angrily that it was only him who got excited to have sex, Gun forcefully lifted the other’s chin. He pressed his own lips and explored Daniel’s mouth. He could taste iron and it made him even more thrilled. He knew everything about this body and so, tonight he would make sure that Daniel wouldn’t forget about how compatible their bodies were. Leaving him? Not in a million years.

Gun was standing between Daniel’s weak legs as he leaned down to kiss. Daniel felt ashamed and confused about this whole situation. He hated himself for slipping small moans while being forced like this. He finally lost it all when Gun’s hand slid down towards his cock that already hard from the kiss. Gun seized it hard and mercilessly stroked it up and down with fast speed.

“Ah! N- no!”

Daniel shook his head as he tried to free his hands. His toes were curled from either the pleasure or the loathing for this muscular man.

Gun whispered to his ear, “No? Are you sure? You’re already leaking, you bitch.” He sucked Daniel’s neck and left a mark on top of his hands’ mark. Gun really knew his body too well, including when he was going to cum.

When Daniel about to cum, he purposely stopped his hand movement for minutes, before continuing it like a devil. It happened so many times until Daniel had already lost count. Gun knew Daniel was already lost in the desire and so he release Daniel’s hands and decided to play with his nipple. That beautiful boy kept mumbling no, but his body had already rocked along with his hand. Seeing the lustful sight, he made a devilish smile, just like when a wolf caught his prey.

For now, he would devote himself to satisfy this fragile boy. He wanted Daniel to remember clearly how he was able to bring this limitless pleasure.

On the other hand, Daniel’s mind was blurry since he was desperate to cum, but not allowed to. His whole body shuddered violently. Without him knowing, he already wrapped Gun’s hips with his legs and mumbled between no and faster. Although his entire body felt really good, his heart ached so much. The one to blame for this situation was himself. He should’ve fight Gun or something, and not lying on the dining table like a whore.

And so, he cried…

He sobbed while saying, “Gun, I can’t… take it anymore…” Tears were running down to his cheeks as he felt his body was going to snap in two.

This was Gun. This was just the beginning of his long hours of sex addiction. When he finally felt enough, he would stop teasing him and then continued to wreck his hole for God knew how long. For fuck, Daniel just wanted this to over soon…

Seeing him shed tears, Gun let maniac laugh, “Is that so?” He proceeded to stroked Daniel’s cock until it was almost spurted out. He closed the tip with his thumb as he saw how Daniel shivered aggressively.

“AH!! SHIT!!” Daniel arched his back as he was not allowed to release it. He couldn’t even grab anything in the table and so he could only grasp his messy shirt. Gun was really satisfied with his job and then he asked threateningly, “So what’s this deal you’re talking about? Enlighten me, please.”

Daniel started to inhale as he replied while sobbing, “Th- there’s no such a deal.” Hearing it, Gun nodded his head in agreement and pretended like he remembered something important.

“Ah! Before, you said you want to leave, right? How about now?”

Hell knew how much Daniel wanted to answer yes, but he was not in a position to act cocky. Gun’s eyes still had that trace of madness and he was not stupid. Thus, he accumulated the rest of his strength to look at Gun’s eyes and with a shaky voice, he answered, “I… I’m not leaving…”

With that, all that pressure in the room was lifted and Gun gave him a chilling grin.

I knew it. I’m the best at satisfying this lustful body.

Gun was going to continued his stroke, but then he paused for a moment. He stared at the twitching cock of Daniel and thinking about something. After that, he did something that even shocked Daniel. He watched in stunned as Gun lowered his head and licked his pre-cum down to his entire cock. Gun finally let go of his own thumb and then replaced it with his tongue. He twirled it on the tip before swallowing Daniel’s. It was his first time to suck Daniel’s cock. He just remembered that after all that countless sex, he never took the liberty to taste Daniel’s.

In his life, Gun had never bowed his head to someone on sex and so, what was he trying to say as he clumsily moved his head up and down on Daniel’s hips?

It didn’t take long until Daniel was released because of the warmth. He gasped so hard as he watched Gun sexily licked his lips, tasting his cum. The sight made his heart skipped a beat.

“I never knew that it would be this tired for doing a blowjob.” He said to himself as he carelessly tossed his shirt, revealing a perfect muscle and some scars. Daniel flinched a little as Gun extended his hands to undress him. However, Gun failed to notice it as he was impatient tonight. Gun kissed Daniel’s jaw lightly and said, “It must be hard for you to keep sucking mine. Next time, I won’t ask you do it for a long time.”

Yeah, bullshit. Daniel thought to himself. Gun really loved it when someone knelt in front of him and suck his cock. When he was in the evil mood, he even roughly grabbed Daniel’s hair and moved his own hips to slam his poor mouth.

Back to the moment, Gun had already put his own cock inside of Daniel’s hole. It was big and long, and it filled the entire area. Even Daniel would feel jealous at its size.

He started to move his hips in a messy rhythm. Each thrust aimed at the perfect spot, sending shivers to Daniel’s body. Both of them moaned in the apartment building as Gun kept thrusting. Once again, Daniel started to lose his mind and his body moved on its own. He spread his legs wider on the table and lifted his ass as if it was begging for more.

Seeing his body moved provocatively, Gun was delighted and lifted Daniel’s hips with his hands.

“See? Your body knows the best.”

With that, he pounded deeper and rougher than before. As if Gun wanted to humiliate him, he kept cursing him and squeezed his ass. Daniel had lost track on how many times he and Gun had reached the climax. His abdomen was filled with sticky white liquid from his own and the skin’s contact was even louder because of Gun’s cum.

“Ah yes…” Gun hissed. “This is heaven!”

That… was the last thing Daniel could hear, before he travelled within his own head. Usually, he would love it when the sex was long and hot. But not now. He didn’t stupid, he knew the thing that Gun did to him now was considered as a rape. It sickened him on how Gun treated him right now. And it made Daniel hated himself.

The blood on his face had already dried, just like his own feelings.

 

To be continued...