Secrets (Ruin My Life) – Lookism [BL]

After sleeping for two hours, Daniel woke up and tiredly prepared himself to school. He already saw the marks that created by Gun on his neck. Well, he could lie to his friends about the hand marks. He would make up a story about how he crushed a gang or something. But the problem was the bite marks. Only stupid people would believe it as mosquito bites. Hmm, at least Vasco and Zack would trust him. However, he couldn’t take the risks.

Usually, Gun would control himself and left marks in the hidden area, but last night, he was in a crazy mode and so he didn’t care. Daniel sighed and decided to use turtleneck as his inner shirt. Dammit, it’s almost summer and he had to wear this.

…

“Hi Danny. What’s with the turtleneck?” Zoe giggled as she sat in front of him.

“Uhh... I saw DG wore it on his fashion airport and so I want to try.” He scratched his head and made an awkward laugh, “Is it weird?”

“Nah! Anything you wear is amazing, Daniel!” Zoe let out a laugh too and lightly slapped his arm.

Zack who was sleeping next to him, suddenly cursed her, “Fuck!! Stop flirting and get lost. I want to sleep!” The whole class was startled and soon became quiet as they heard Zack’s words.

“Asshole.” Zoe pouted and cursed back at Zack before she sent a wink to Daniel and left their seats. He made an apologetic smile to the whole class in behalf of his friend. Since Mira was sick, he was not in the mood to attend classes.

“You okay, man?” Suddenly he asked Daniel.

“Huh?”

Zack sleepily looked at his seatmate and said, “You don’t look good. Geez, don’t tell me you’re sick too?”

Daniel shook his head and answered, “I’m fine. I just didn’t get enough sleep last night.” Okay, the truth was that his waist and ass were kind of uncomfortable and sore. But he couldn’t say this out loud, right?

“Yeah? Now that I got rid of Zoe, you can sleep just like me, man.” Zack proudly said this to Daniel. Of course, it was a great idea! With Zack’s help, he slept for another 45 minutes. After he awake and checked his phone, he saw that there was a miscall from Gun. Daniel’s heart was trembling from anxiety, but he had no chance to send him a message since the teacher had already entered the class.

…

Finally, the classes had ended. Today was Daniel and Zack’s turn to clean the classroom. The class rep was really strict and he even stood at the door to watch them finished the task. Zack was really annoyed at him, “Fuck. I wanted to skip the cleaning and go to Mira’s house right away.” He sent laser eyes to the class rep and acted like he wanted to hit him with the broom. Amazingly, the class rep responded with coolness by saying, “I will report you to the teacher if you dare to skip another day.”

“GAH!!”

“W-wow, Zack! Hold it! Don’t hit someone with glasses!”

…

After spending their time sweeping and mopping the classroom, the last task was to place the trash at the disposal. It was located at the school backyard and most students hated to go there. One of the reasons was the far distance between the backyard and the main building. Seeing Zack’s uneasiness, Daniel smiled at him and said, “Leave it to me, Zack. I know you’re worried about Mira. It’s the last task anyway. He can leave right, class rep?”

Zack stared at Daniel with his puppy eyes. People could almost imagine a tail waving excitedly behind his back. The class rep made a sigh and agreed with Daniel suggestion. “I trust you, Daniel. You better put it on the destined spot, alright.” Then he finally left the class and went home.

“Shithead.” Zack cursed at him. “If only Mira didn’t forbid me to fight, I would send him to the space.” Daniel only laughed as he already familiar with Zack’s antics. Only Mira could tame this wild boy. When they reached the separate way, he put his hand on Daniel’s shoulder, “Thanks, man. I’ll treat you something delicious later.” Daniel smiled and shook his head, “Nah. It’s better for you to see Mira soon. Send my supports for her, alright.” With that, Zack ran towards the school gate. It seemed like he was really worried about Mira’s health.

The school path to the backyard was getting empty as the students only had late activities on the main building. Another reason why students hated this area was because this was the perfect hideout for bullies to gather and smoke since the teachers never went this way. Daniel could smell cigarettes smoke from some alleys and then paced himself to the disposal.

Arriving there, he placed the trash neatly and dusted off his hands. “All done!” He could feel sweats dripped down from his forehead and his back. He sighed and muttered lowly while walking away, “This goddamn turtleneck! At this rate I’m going to die because of dehydration.” Still on the backyard area, Daniel strode towards the main building, but then a familiar voice stopped him. “Hey, pretty boy.”

His entire body tensed as he turned his head slowly to the voice. On the alley, a tall, slender man with his hair slicked back was leaning on the wall. It was Gun.

After he was sure that nobody around, Daniel nervously reached him and questioned, “W- why are you still here? You’re supposed to guard Crystal, right?” Gun stared at his neck for a second and straighten up, “Here. It’s hot today. You should drink this.” Daniel looked below and saw that it was an energy drink. He could feel that his cheek blushed, not from the heat, but from the man in front of him. He took the cold drink and muttered a thank you.

“The princess told me not to follow her for 2 hours since she wanted to spend her time with her friends.” Daniel gave out an ah and nervously looked at the energy drink again. “Why didn’t you answer my call?” Gun narrowed his eyes behind his sunglasses. The other was startled and gave a quick response, “Sorry. I- I was sleeping…” Daniel made sure to look straight at Gun’s eyes so that he would believe him. Of course, he did tell him the truth! However, soon Daniel was confused at this new fact. Gun had never called him in the day time before…

“Is there something wrong?” He asked worriedly. The older gave him a smirk and answered, “Nope. Just wanted to check on you.” Seeing the energy drink that left unopened, Gun added, “You should drink it while it’s cold.” Daniel nodded and then calmly leaned on the wall. He opened the can and drank it. The cool sensation flowed down from his mouth until his stomach, helping him handled the soon-to-be-summer heat. He gave the other a smile, “Ahh… This is the best. I almost died because of the heat.”

Gun also smiled and suddenly closed their distance and put his right hand besides Daniel’s head. He became alerted and stammered, “Wh-what are you doing?”

“I want to drink it too.” Listening to the words, Daniel was relief. Hm, if Gun wanted to drink this then sure. After all, it was him who bought it. He casually gave the energy drink to Gun and innocently said, “Sure. Drink this.”

With his innocent reaction, Gun made a chuckle and continued, “I want to drink it from here.” He moved his head and softly pressed his lips to Daniel’s. The younger eyes got bigger as he was stunned by Gun’s action. Then it only took a second for his face redden from embarrassment as his heart beat faster. He pushed the other and panickily cursed, “Bastard. We’re on my school! How could you ask such a pervert thing here?”

“Relax. No one’s going to come here.” Then, Gun rubbed Daniel’s lips with his thumb and said, “Your lips is cold and sweet. Give me more.” He made such a handsome smile in front of Daniel. That kind of smile that only happened when Gun was in his normal mood and honestly, it really suited him.

Once again, Daniel realized that he was a fool in love. Last night, he throwed a tantrum by saying that he wanted to end the relationship. This man had hurt him physically and emotionally. But now, looked at him! Just from a smile, he had willingly drunk up the drink and pressed their lips together. Gun was excited with his response and sucked the drink to his own mouth. Even when the drink had already gone, he made sure to taste every part of Daniel’s mouth.

“Happy?” Daniel sarcastically asked him and wiped his own mouth. Gun made a hummed and sent a short word, “Again.” Thus, Daniel followed the order and kept sharing the drink while passionately making out. This is pretty dangerous, he thought while submitting against Gun’s kisses. He could feel the can was getting lighter and it made him pretty disappointed.

When the last kiss was made, unexpectedly both of them heard a group of people that coming closer. Daniel anxiously pushed Gun and ready to run, but then he was blocked by the older’s hands around his head. “Sstt. Let me handle this. Just turn your head the other way.” His heart beat violently as Daniel heard the sounds were coming closer. They headed to this alley! He shrunk his head to his shoulder and prayed that he would not get caught.

“Man, the girl has nice boobs! Might be better than my ex!”

“HAHA! You should try her out on the first date.”

“Damn! I’m totally jealous. Can I come?”

“Sorry, but I’m not into threesome.”

The group made a big laughter by the last comment. Ugh assholes, Daniel thought to himself while lowering his head. Gun had already prepared when the kids came into the alley. He glared to the side as if he wanted to devour them. The group of delinquents was shocked and silenced by the sight. “Who are you? You’re not one of our kids!”

“Fuck off while I’m on a nice mood.” Gun threaten them scarily. His right hand blocked their curious sights so that they couldn’t see Daniel’s face. Daniel was super famous in the school. If they knew it’s him, it would be difficult to expel many types of rumours.

Fortunately, one of the boys recognized Gun. He saved his friends’ asses and made 90 degrees bow. “Sir, of course, we’re leaving! Have a nice day!” With that, that group of delinquents confusedly ran away far from the backyard. All of them panted while hearing the explanation. “It’s him! The scariest thug ever! He could defeat 100 high schoolers alone back when he was in the middle school!”

“What?! What was his business at our school?!”

“I don’t know, man. I can’t clearly see the other. Poor kid, he fucked up. He’s going to die…” All of them shivered and thanked him for saving their asses.

…

When the kids were running away, Daniel couldn’t hold on and coughed a lot. He got choked while gulping the last drink on panic. He patted his chest to soothe the pain and said, “Gun, that was the last one.” Gun didn’t hide his disappointment and stared at him intensely, “But I’m still thirsty.”

“W- well. Should I go to a convenience store and buy you a cold drink?” Daniel didn’t dare to look at him on the eye. If he provoked him, the situation would turn crazy again. He still remembered the mad man clearly on his mind. Seeing the anxious boy, Gun made a big smile and rubbed his hand outside of Daniel’s cock. “I want to drink this.” Daniel let out a suppressed shriek as he was surprised. He hit Gun’s strong chest and angrily whispered, “Pervert! We’ve just done it until early in the morning!”

“Why? You don’t want me to make you feel good? But you’re already turned on from our kisses.”

“I don’t want it! Period! Just leave and guard Crystal or something!”

Gun let out a sigh and released his hand from Daniel’s pants. He looked at him seriously from behind his sunglasses. “I know we just did it last night, but I already miss you.”

Daniel eyes got bigger as he repeated the words inside his head. He misses me? Not my body, but ME?!

“I won’t put it in. I just want you to feel good. Trust me.”

Daniel gazed at him and thought to himself WHO THE FUCK IS THIS MAN? WHY DID HE SUDDENLY BECOME SO CARING?! If Daniel believed that he knew Gun the best then it’s the same as Gun. He believed that he knew Daniel the best. He knew that Daniel loved it when the other showed some little considerations. And he was right. Daniel shyly reached to his wrist and lead him to an old storage on the backyard. He locked the storage from the inside and said, “W-what are you going to do now?”

Right now, Gun felt like he had already won this boy back. After last night, he couldn’t help, but want to check Daniel’s reactions towards himself. He wanted to make sure that his boy didn’t change. “Sit down here.” He pulled out a clean chair and gave it to Daniel. The younger sat down shyly and curiously observed as Gun picked the last clean chair and sat down in front of him. Now, they sat closely while facing each other. He already took off Daniel’s necktie, unbutton his shirt, and pulled up the inner clothe, but then he said, “Let’s not take our clothes off. The floor is dirty.” Daniel nodded as agreement and stiffly sat as he already showed his upper body.

Gun let out a chuckle and spread Daniel’s legs. Then, he placed his own legs inside as if he wanted to make sure that Daniel couldn’t close his own legs. “Hands.” At this rate, Daniel knew what Gun was doing. They had already done this kind of thing before. He wanted to completely play him. As if he was bewitched, Daniel extended his arms obediently and let Gun tied it with his own necktie. “Good boy.” Then, Gun took off his watch and put it on the nearest table. “We can play for an hour and half before I have to babysit a princess.” Daniel bit his own lips and spoke, “What if I make too much noise?”

“Don’t worry. I’ll shut you off with my mouth.”

After sleeping for two hours, Daniel woke up and tiredly prepared himself to school. He already saw the marks that created by Gun on his neck. Well, he could lie to his friends about the hand marks. He would make up a story about how he crushed a gang or something. But the problem was the bite marks. Only stupid people would believe it as mosquito bites. Hmm, at least Vasco and Zack would trust him. However, he couldn’t take the risks.

Usually, Gun would control himself and left marks in the hidden area, but last night, he was in a crazy mode and so he didn’t care. Daniel sighed and decided to use turtleneck as his inner shirt. Dammit, it’s almost summer and he had to wear this.

…

“Hi Danny. What’s with the turtleneck?” Zoe giggled as she sat in front of him.

“Uhh... I saw DG wore it on his fashion airport and so I want to try.” He scratched his head and made an awkward laugh, “Is it weird?”

“Nah! Anything you wear is amazing, Daniel!” Zoe let out a laugh too and lightly slapped his arm.

Zack who was sleeping next to him, suddenly cursed her, “Fuck!! Stop flirting and get lost. I want to sleep!” The whole class was startled and soon became quiet as they heard Zack’s words.

“Asshole.” Zoe pouted and cursed back at Zack before she sent a wink to Daniel and left their seats. He made an apologetic smile to the whole class in behalf of his friend. Since Mira was sick, he was not in the mood to attend classes.

“You okay, man?” Suddenly he asked Daniel.

“Huh?”

Zack sleepily looked at his seatmate and said, “You don’t look good. Geez, don’t tell me you’re sick too?”

Daniel shook his head and answered, “I’m fine. I just didn’t get enough sleep last night.” Okay, the truth was that his waist and ass were kind of uncomfortable and sore. But he couldn’t say this out loud, right?

“Yeah? Now that I got rid of Zoe, you can sleep just like me, man.” Zack proudly said this to Daniel. Of course, it was a great idea! With Zack’s help, he slept for another 45 minutes. After he awake and checked his phone, he saw that there was a miscall from Gun. Daniel’s heart was trembling from anxiety, but he had no chance to send him a message since the teacher had already entered the class.

…

Finally, the classes had ended. Today was Daniel and Zack’s turn to clean the classroom. The class rep was really strict and he even stood at the door to watch them finished the task. Zack was really annoyed at him, “Fuck. I wanted to skip the cleaning and go to Mira’s house right away.” He sent laser eyes to the class rep and acted like he wanted to hit him with the broom. Amazingly, the class rep responded with coolness by saying, “I will report you to the teacher if you dare to skip another day.”

“GAH!!”

“W-wow, Zack! Hold it! Don’t hit someone with glasses!”

…

After spending their time sweeping and mopping the classroom, the last task was to place the trash at the disposal. It was located at the school backyard and most students hated to go there. One of the reasons was the far distance between the backyard and the main building. Seeing Zack’s uneasiness, Daniel smiled at him and said, “Leave it to me, Zack. I know you’re worried about Mira. It’s the last task anyway. He can leave right, class rep?”

Zack stared at Daniel with his puppy eyes. People could almost imagine a tail waving excitedly behind his back. The class rep made a sigh and agreed with Daniel suggestion. “I trust you, Daniel. You better put it on the destined spot, alright.” Then he finally left the class and went home.

“Shithead.” Zack cursed at him. “If only Mira didn’t forbid me to fight, I would send him to the space.” Daniel only laughed as he already familiar with Zack’s antics. Only Mira could tame this wild boy. When they reached the separate way, he put his hand on Daniel’s shoulder, “Thanks, man. I’ll treat you something delicious later.” Daniel smiled and shook his head, “Nah. It’s better for you to see Mira soon. Send my supports for her, alright.” With that, Zack ran towards the school gate. It seemed like he was really worried about Mira’s health.

The school path to the backyard was getting empty as the students only had late activities on the main building. Another reason why students hated this area was because this was the perfect hideout for bullies to gather and smoke since the teachers never went this way. Daniel could smell cigarettes smoke from some alleys and then paced himself to the disposal.

Arriving there, he placed the trash neatly and dusted off his hands. “All done!” He could feel sweats dripped down from his forehead and his back. He sighed and muttered lowly while walking away, “This goddamn turtleneck! At this rate I’m going to die because of dehydration.” Still on the backyard area, Daniel strode towards the main building, but then a familiar voice stopped him. “Hey, pretty boy.”

His entire body tensed as he turned his head slowly to the voice. On the alley, a tall, slender man with his hair slicked back was leaning on the wall. It was Gun.

After he was sure that nobody around, Daniel nervously reached him and questioned, “W- why are you still here? You’re supposed to guard Crystal, right?” Gun stared at his neck for a second and straighten up, “Here. It’s hot today. You should drink this.” Daniel looked below and saw that it was an energy drink. He could feel that his cheek blushed, not from the heat, but from the man in front of him. He took the cold drink and muttered a thank you.

“The princess told me not to follow her for 2 hours since she wanted to spend her time with her friends.” Daniel gave out an ah and nervously looked at the energy drink again. “Why didn’t you answer my call?” Gun narrowed his eyes behind his sunglasses. The other was startled and gave a quick response, “Sorry. I- I was sleeping…” Daniel made sure to look straight at Gun’s eyes so that he would believe him. Of course, he did tell him the truth! However, soon Daniel was confused at this new fact. Gun had never called him in the day time before…

“Is there something wrong?” He asked worriedly. The older gave him a smirk and answered, “Nope. Just wanted to check on you.” Seeing the energy drink that left unopened, Gun added, “You should drink it while it’s cold.” Daniel nodded and then calmly leaned on the wall. He opened the can and drank it. The cool sensation flowed down from his mouth until his stomach, helping him handled the soon-to-be-summer heat. He gave the other a smile, “Ahh… This is the best. I almost died because of the heat.”

Gun also smiled and suddenly closed their distance and put his right hand besides Daniel’s head. He became alerted and stammered, “Wh-what are you doing?”

“I want to drink it too.” Listening to the words, Daniel was relief. Hm, if Gun wanted to drink this then sure. After all, it was him who bought it. He casually gave the energy drink to Gun and innocently said, “Sure. Drink this.”

With his innocent reaction, Gun made a chuckle and continued, “I want to drink it from here.” He moved his head and softly pressed his lips to Daniel’s. The younger eyes got bigger as he was stunned by Gun’s action. Then it only took a second for his face redden from embarrassment as his heart beat faster. He pushed the other and panickily cursed, “Bastard. We’re on my school! How could you ask such a pervert thing here?”

“Relax. No one’s going to come here.” Then, Gun rubbed Daniel’s lips with his thumb and said, “Your lips is cold and sweet. Give me more.” He made such a handsome smile in front of Daniel. That kind of smile that only happened when Gun was in his normal mood and honestly, it really suited him.

Once again, Daniel realized that he was a fool in love. Last night, he throwed a tantrum by saying that he wanted to end the relationship. This man had hurt him physically and emotionally. But now, looked at him! Just from a smile, he had willingly drunk up the drink and pressed their lips together. Gun was excited with his response and sucked the drink to his own mouth. Even when the drink had already gone, he made sure to taste every part of Daniel’s mouth.

“Happy?” Daniel sarcastically asked him and wiped his own mouth. Gun made a hummed and sent a short word, “Again.” Thus, Daniel followed the order and kept sharing the drink while passionately making out. This is pretty dangerous, he thought while submitting against Gun’s kisses. He could feel the can was getting lighter and it made him pretty disappointed.

When the last kiss was made, unexpectedly both of them heard a group of people that coming closer. Daniel anxiously pushed Gun and ready to run, but then he was blocked by the older’s hands around his head. “Sstt. Let me handle this. Just turn your head the other way.” His heart beat violently as Daniel heard the sounds were coming closer. They headed to this alley! He shrunk his head to his shoulder and prayed that he would not get caught.

“Man, the girl has nice boobs! Might be better than my ex!”

“HAHA! You should try her out on the first date.”

“Damn! I’m totally jealous. Can I come?”

“Sorry, but I’m not into threesome.”

The group made a big laughter by the last comment. Ugh assholes, Daniel thought to himself while lowering his head. Gun had already prepared when the kids came into the alley. He glared to the side as if he wanted to devour them. The group of delinquents was shocked and silenced by the sight. “Who are you? You’re not one of our kids!”

“Fuck off while I’m on a nice mood.” Gun threaten them scarily. His right hand blocked their curious sights so that they couldn’t see Daniel’s face. Daniel was super famous in the school. If they knew it’s him, it would be difficult to expel many types of rumours.

Fortunately, one of the boys recognized Gun. He saved his friends’ asses and made 90 degrees bow. “Sir, of course, we’re leaving! Have a nice day!” With that, that group of delinquents confusedly ran away far from the backyard. All of them panted while hearing the explanation. “It’s him! The scariest thug ever! He could defeat 100 high schoolers alone back when he was in the middle school!”

“What?! What was his business at our school?!”

“I don’t know, man. I can’t clearly see the other. Poor kid, he fucked up. He’s going to die…” All of them shivered and thanked him for saving their asses.

…

When the kids were running away, Daniel couldn’t hold on and coughed a lot. He got choked while gulping the last drink on panic. He patted his chest to soothe the pain and said, “Gun, that was the last one.” Gun didn’t hide his disappointment and stared at him intensely, “But I’m still thirsty.”

“W- well. Should I go to a convenience store and buy you a cold drink?” Daniel didn’t dare to look at him on the eye. If he provoked him, the situation would turn crazy again. He still remembered the mad man clearly on his mind. Seeing the anxious boy, Gun made a big smile and rubbed his hand outside of Daniel’s cock. “I want to drink this.” Daniel let out a suppressed shriek as he was surprised. He hit Gun’s strong chest and angrily whispered, “Pervert! We’ve just done it until early in the morning!”

“Why? You don’t want me to make you feel good? But you’re already turned on from our kisses.”

“I don’t want it! Period! Just leave and guard Crystal or something!”

Gun let out a sigh and released his hand from Daniel’s pants. He looked at him seriously from behind his sunglasses. “I know we just did it last night, but I already miss you.”

Daniel eyes got bigger as he repeated the words inside his head. He misses me? Not my body, but ME?!

“I won’t put it in. I just want you to feel good. Trust me.”

Daniel gazed at him and thought to himself WHO THE FUCK IS THIS MAN? WHY DID HE SUDDENLY BECOME SO CARING?! If Daniel believed that he knew Gun the best then it’s the same as Gun. He believed that he knew Daniel the best. He knew that Daniel loved it when the other showed some little considerations. And he was right. Daniel shyly reached to his wrist and lead him to an old storage on the backyard. He locked the storage from the inside and said, “W-what are you going to do now?”

Right now, Gun felt like he had already won this boy back. After last night, he couldn’t help, but want to check Daniel’s reactions towards himself. He wanted to make sure that his boy didn’t change. “Sit down here.” He pulled out a clean chair and gave it to Daniel. The younger sat down shyly and curiously observed as Gun picked the last clean chair and sat down in front of him. Now, they sat closely while facing each other. He already took off Daniel’s necktie, unbutton his shirt, and pulled up the inner clothe, but then he said, “Let’s not take our clothes off. The floor is dirty.” Daniel nodded as agreement and stiffly sat as he already showed his upper body.

Gun let out a chuckle and spread Daniel’s legs. Then, he placed his own legs inside as if he wanted to make sure that Daniel couldn’t close his own legs. “Hands.” At this rate, Daniel knew what Gun was doing. They had already done this kind of thing before. He wanted to completely play him. As if he was bewitched, Daniel extended his arms obediently and let Gun tied it with his own necktie. “Good boy.” Then, Gun took off his watch and put it on the nearest table. “We can play for an hour and half before I have to babysit a princess.” Daniel bit his own lips and spoke, “What if I make too much noise?”

“Don’t worry. I’ll shut you off with my mouth.”

 

 

To be continued...