My Adopted Family

"The victim… There isn't one, right?"

 

Dr. Sora smiled at my answer as if it was the correct answer.

 

"Okay, here no one harmed, since you weren't in committee relationship. Rather, the victim is yourself first and foremost. You didn't do anything wrong, but you're the only one suffering from guilt."

 

"I am the victim?"

 

"Yes. After all, you didn't do anything wrong, but you feel guilty and blame yourself. So don't feel guilt and blame yourself, you didn't do anything wrong."

 

Even though they were empty words, Dr. Sora's words soaked my heart like sweet rain in a drought.

 

I felt like I was about to cry.

 

All the things I had been worrying about disappeared.

I felt like all the sins I thought were nothing.

 

"Rye but you shouldn't lose your mind because your family is special. There are plenty of people who try to ruin you even if you haven't done anything wrong, right?"

 

"Yes… there is."

 

It is a malicious fandom that is trying to make a dent in any way possible, and the reporters, too.

 

Those people should never be known about me and my desires.

 

Whether it's wrong or not, if those people find out, they'll definitely try to destroy my family.

 

"And one more thing. Never do anything that the other person does not agree with. They say people have the freedom to love, but that also applies to others. You shouldn't try to force anything. Do you know what I mean?"

 

"Ah yes. I will keep that in mind."

 

Dr. Sora's advice was very obvious, but it was also just as important.

 

If I cross the line with my selfish desires, we may suffer irreparable harm to both sides.

 

"Lastly, do you care about anyone other than your family?"

 

"Someone I care about?"

 

That was another unexpected question.

 

Does the person I care about here refer to someone I feel sexual desire in the same way I feel towards a family member?

 

"Hmm, Something like a girl from the same school."

 

"No, not really… I'm still afraid of people other than my family."

I shook my head.

 

Let alone anyone I care about. I don't even have anyone close to me.

 

"Okay, because you scared... Are you afraid of me too?"

 

"No. I'm not scared of you."

 

Dr. Sora is someone who has counseled me since I was in middle school.

 

Although she is different from my mother, she is like a lifesaver to me, and I am grateful to her.

 

Maybe she was someone I talked to more openly than my mother.

 

"Then how about you... I mean have you ever felt sexual desire toward me?"

 

"Huh?"

 

I couldn't help but be taken aback by her words.

 

This is because it was so sudden and embarrassing that it was difficult to answer easily.

 

"You can be honest. I'm asking this question to determine whether you only has sexual desires towards your family, or whether you accumulated sexual desires are directed towards your closest known people of the opposite sex."

 

I finally understood why she suddenly asked such a question.

 

However, it was not something that could be easily digested.

 

When I was unable to answer and was hesitating, she placed her hand on the back of my hand again.

 

She held hands that same way before, but for some reason, it felt different this time.

 

She gently strokes the back of my hand.

 

I felt a little tickled and embarrassed.

 

When our eyes met, the eyes inside the glasses were smiling sweetly.

 

Until now, I had never once viewed Dr. Sora as an object of sexual desire.

 

But once I started to become aware of it, my heart started pounding strangely.

 

Originally, Dr. Sora was famous for her beauty, psychiatry, and female doctor.

 

When advice related to psychiatry is needed on TV, she is always the first choice.

 

With her intelligent appearance, sharp analytical skills, and friendly counseling attitude, she became as popular as a celebrity.

 

And for me, she was my counselor for a long time, and I could say that she was the person I opened up to the most outside of my family.

 

I was definitely feeling a sexual desire towards Dr. Sora.

 

"Can I be honest?"

 

"Of course, you can tell anything.

 

"I feel, I feel sexual desire even for you."

 

"Hehe. Thank you. It seems I'm still attractive.'

 

The teacher smiled and took her hand off the back of my hand.

 

The falling warmth was disappointing.

 

What were I expecting? It's natural that nothing happens.

 

I shook off the random thoughts that came to my mind.

 

"Then you're is normal. Your not feels sexual desire towards your family, but your sexual desire that has accumulated and has no place to go is directed towards yout family."

 

"Yes…"

 

I don't understand, but anyway, this week's consultation ended like this.

 

"Keep in mind what the I said today. If you have any other concerns, don't just keep them to yourself. Talk about them. Even if it's not me, talk to family."

 

"All right."

 

Today's consultation was especially rewarding as it relieved my concerns.

 

"Then Rye, see you in two weeks."

 

"Thank you, Dr. Sora."

 

I politely greeted the teacher, who waved and left the treatment room.

 

My steps back home felt much lighter.

 

***

 

Meanwhile, Dr. Soraya, who had sent Ryker away and was left alone in the clinic, sighed deeply.

 

"I failed this week… It was a golden opportunity..."

 

She fell helplessly on the desk.

 

Then she put her forehead on the desk and started muttering something.

 

"But touching the patient... No, if I insist that this is also part of the treatment... "

 

Then she looked at her right hand.

 

The hand that touched the back of Ryeker's hand.

 

"I've been in charge of him for 7 years, but the number of times I've had physical contact like this has only been a handful. After two weeks, definitely…"

 

The hand naturally went down to the desk.

 

And then it disappeared under her skirt.

 

"Ahh… … ♡"

 

So, Dr. Soraya spent time alone until her next appointment.