The Protagonist Only Thinks About Falling In Love

"Let's go." He Yu came out of the classroom.

"En." Li Fengran straightened up, "Where did you go just now?"

He Yu: "The rooftop."

Li Fengran: "...the rooftop?"

"Hmm." It was convenient to speak there.

He Yu understood Li Fengran's thoughts and turned his head: "Do you want to ask what we said?"

Li Fengran: "I have no other intention."

"I know." He Yu paused and said, "Don't meddle in this matter."

Li Fengran's eyes flickered slightly, "What's the matter?"

"It's nothing." Seeing that Jiang Fanlu didn't seem to have said anything to him, He Yu changed the subject, "Shall we go out for barbecue after school?"

"OK……"

The cafeteria has passed the initial peak period, and there are already a lot less people at this moment. He Yu and Li Fengran found a place to sit down. They were in a hurry to get food. Next, He Yu took his plate directly, got rid of the portion he didn't eat, and put two pieces of braised pork on his plate.

"He Yu..."

"Huh?" He Yu pushed the plate in front of him, "Okay."

Li Fengran usually eats a lot, but for some reason, he doesn't gain weight. He looks thin and looks weak when he puts on his clothes. His fair face has delicate features and a feeling of weakness. When speaking, he is very affectionate.

"Why do you keep taking care of me?" Li Fengran asked.

He Yu stopped moving.

why?

He Yu never thought about this question.

"Haven't we always been like this?" he said.

"Yes." Li Fengran murmured, and suddenly smiled, "Yes, we have always been like this, but, do you have a girlfriend in the future?"

He Yu: "What?"

Li Fengran lowered his head and poked the rice with his chopsticks: "Now that you have a girlfriend, you can't treat me so well anymore. You are too kind to others, and your partner is easy to be jealous."

"No." He Yu said.

won't what?Will not be jealous, or will not have a girlfriend?

Li Fengran tilted his head, and He Yu gave him the answer in the next second, "There will be no girlfriend."

Li Fengran: "..."

He looked relaxed with a smile on his face: "How can you be so sure?"

"Don't beat around the bush." ​​He Yu said, "I'm not interested in Jiang Fanlu."

Li Fengran: "..."

Misunderstood again.

Putting his slender fingers on the side of his face, Li Fengran looked sideways at He Yu, "Really...but you treat her very differently."

He Yu was very special to Jiang Fanlu, and Li Fengran noticed it the first time he saw Jiang Fanlu, the way He Yu looked at her was different from the way he looked at other girls.

He Yu didn't refute, Jiang Fanlu is indeed different, because she might be the person Li Fengran likes, but it is also true to say that he is not interested in Jiang Fanlu.

"So, what are you worried about?" He Yu glanced at him, his long and narrow eyes added a bit of sharpness, making the smile on Li Fengran's lips curl up.

The starting point of He Yu's question is unclear.

He and Li Fengran's acquaintance for nearly ten years gave him an inherent impression of the relationship between the two, and a balance was reached between the two, but now, this balance is about to be broken, and the appearance of that person is precisely Jiang Fanlu.

He Yu doesn't like or hate her, but...he doesn't really look forward to her appearance.

"I'm not worried about anything." Li Fengran lowered his head and said, "I'm just..."

I feel uneasy, afraid that He Yu will be robbed, and there is nothing I can do.

He mumbled and didn't continue, He Yu didn't ask any more questions, he just lowered his head and ate, feeling...uncomfortable.

I'm not happy that Li Fengran is guarding against him like a thief, I'm not happy that Li Fengran is too popular with girls, and he never refuses people, I'm not happy... Li Fengran likes her.

This is not normal, He Yu knows it, but he is letting his abnormality go, at this moment, letting his sensibility defeat his rationality and gain the upper hand.

It won't be long.

he thinks.

-

But He Yu made a mistake.

When school was over, the two met Jiang Fanlu. Jiang Fanlu was talking to He Yu, but Li Fengran intervened. He was very good at leading the conversation, and Jiang Fanlu followed him before he knew it.

Again.

As long as Li Fengran thinks about it, no one will be unable to talk to him.

He has a clean and beautiful face, a cheerful and optimistic personality, is gentle and sincere to others, loves to laugh, and his emotions are contagious. No one will hate his smiling face, healed and sunny.

He can even be called a master of love. After one semester, all the girls' love letters collected can be printed into a booklet.

The weather is a bit cold, and when I breathe out, it is filled with white mist.

Li Fengran and Jiang Fanlu were talking and laughing as they walked, He Yu stood on Li Fengran's right side, watching the two chat happily with cold eyes, he had a wink, as if he shouldn't stay any longer.

He Yu was carrying his schoolbag, "I still have something to do, so I'm leaving first."

"Where are you going?" Li Fengran followed.

He Yu: "Don't follow."

His tone was a bit cold, it was rare for Li Fengran to receive such cold treatment, and he stood there at a loss for a while.

He Yu turned his head and glanced at him, "Personal matters, don't follow me."

Li Fengran: "I... can help."

He Yu twitched the corner of his mouth, "No need."

There should be girls who need his "help" more.

It sucks, the feeling.

He Yu was angry.

Li Fengran stood there in a daze.

For Jiang Fanlu?

He Yu seems to have a bad temper and bad patience, as if a few words can stir up his bad temper, but after they got to know each other well, He Yu rarely gets angry with him.

He indulged him to come and go in his world, he thought it was special, He Yu also liked him a little bit, not a friend's liking, but the kind of heart-pounding liking.

Li Fengran clutched the strap of his schoolbag, and didn't even hear Jiang Fanlu talking to him, as if he was cut off from the outside world.

When he likes someone, every move and subtlety of the other person is enough for him to recall for a long time, and this also includes a sour side.

On Saturday, Li Fengran went downstairs to look for He Yu, but after knocking on the door for a long time, there was no answer. He called He Yu, only to find out that He Yu had gone out.

"Where are you?"

"Bookstore." He Yu stood in the shopping mall and picked out things.

"Which bookstore?" Li Fengran asked.

He Yu: "I won't be able to go back for a while, so I'll hang up first."

"He Yu..." Before Li Fengran finished speaking, he heard a "beep" on the other end of the phone and hung up.

He held the phone, pursed his lips, and lay down on the balcony.

Still angry?

At night, Tongzilou is lit with warm yellow lights as always, and the lights in the corridor seem to be waiting for those who come back late, adding warmth for no reason.

On the wooden table is a small box with blue fluff on the shell and the word "Seventeen" engraved on the bottom. The table lamp on the table is shining white. The sleeves of the boy's white sweater are wrapped around his thin wrist, and there is a bear key in his palm. buckle.

He Yu made this by himself, failed several times, went to buy some materials today, finally finished it, it's time to finish.

He had just washed his hair, blown it half-dry, and let it rest on his forehead in a mess.

That's it.

He put the keychain into the box, let out a long sigh of relief, leaned back on the back of the chair, held the open can of drink on the table, took a sip with his head up, and looked at the ceiling.

I haven't seen Li Fengran for a day.

【Are you jealous? 】The system asked.

——Jealous, what a fresh vocabulary.

【Probably. 】He said.

But not all.

What happened yesterday was vivid in his mind, and he felt a dull pain in his forehead, so he simply stopped thinking about it.

The system feels that this is really the most accurate "adult system" he has ever brought to understand his own feelings.

The "adult system", as the name suggests, becomes a human system.

[If necessary, I will help you. 】The system said.

He Yu felt that he didn't need it.

Digging out one's own feelings is sometimes a refreshing pleasure, but it's a little uncomfortable when you stumble.

"Boom boom boom"——

The knock on the door interrupted He Yu's thoughts, and He Yu opened his eyes. In this house, He's mother and He's father would not knock on the door.

"He Yu, are you asleep?" Li Fengran's voice came from outside the door.

He Yu stuffed the box into the drawer, "No, the door is unlocked, come in."

The door was opened immediately, and Li Fengran stood at the door, revealing half of his body. His habit has really remained unchanged since he was a child.

"Is there something wrong?" He Yu asked.

Li Fengran came in directly, and closed the door behind his back. He obviously just took a shower, and his face was still flushed from the heat, "I can't sleep."

He Yu: "Write more test papers."

"I want to sleep with you." Li Fengran said.

He Yu: "Squeeze."

Li Fengran: "I only occupy a small position."

It was not yet ten o'clock.

He Yu's quilt had just been dried in the sun two days ago, it was fluffy and soft, and it was very warm to sleep on. When the two got into bed, He Yu reached out and turned off the light.

Not 5 minutes after lying down, Li Fengran came over, lay on his side with his forehead on his shoulder, and after a while, asked him in a low voice if he was angry today.

He Yu said no, Li Fengran usually would ask questions, or mess around, but not today, he was very quiet, just leaning on He Yu's shoulder, as if absorbing the warmth from his body.

He Yu's heart softened.

Li Fengran has always been very good at pretending to be pitiful, and He Yu is in favor of him.

"He Yu..." Li Fengran asked in a low voice, "Do you like Jiang Fanlu?"

"I don't like it." He Yu said.

"But you treat her differently." Li Fengran said.

"Being different doesn't mean you like it."

"why……"

"If you like it, I won't snatch it from you." He Yu said quietly, "Don't be so guarded against me in the future."

Li Fengran: "..."

That's right, he let He Yu misunderstand before, without explaining, he didn't expect the retribution to come so quickly.

"I'm not—" Li Fengran said, "I'm not guarding against you, He Yu, you know, you are my best...friend."

"Well, I know." He Yu said.

"If you like it, I will give up." Li Fengran said.

This sentence has two different meanings from the standpoint of the two.

If he could, he wished he could give him everything, but He Yu didn't want it.

He Yu won't take it too seriously.

The goodwill of people who don't like it is a burden, not to mention their special relationship, they are good friends when they are young.

It is said that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, but "like He Yu" is like a piece of cake, occasionally sour and sweet, so I am reluctant to give up, and dare not reveal it until I am sure.

That is the relationship of so many years, far more than the simple word like can be summed up.

He Yu is his past and the future he is looking forward to. The trace he left in his life is a stroke of rich color.

He is still too young and not mature enough to fall in love with someone he can't like, so he behaves childishly and embarrassingly.

Li Fengran's clear eyes were full of mist, and he said in a low voice: "He Yu...don't hate me."

There was a bit of suppressed crying in his voice.

He Yu ordered: "Don't cry."

"Hmm...um..." Li Fengran choked back his sobs.

"What about you?" He Yu asked in a low voice, "Do you like her?"

"I don't, I don't like her." Li Fengran grabbed He Yu's sleeve under the quilt, "I'm just... afraid that you will be snatched away by her—He Yu... I'm afraid you hate me..."

Still crying.

This reason is reasonable, and somewhat beyond He Yu's expectations.

He Yu felt the wetness of the clothes permeating his shoulders, and Li Fengran's breath sprayed behind his ears, suddenly light and heavy, hot and humid.

He Yu's voice became softer, and he said, "I won't hate you."

Yes, until the day he knows it all.

Li Fengran closed his eyes and leaned against his shoulder, feeling a little cold all of a sudden, his body shivered slightly, shivering.

"He Yu, I'm so cold." He said softly.

He Yu hugged him sideways, put his head on his chest, and comforted him along his back.

Li Fengran has an unusual possessive desire for him, he should have noticed it long ago.

Maybe he knew it earlier, but he let it go.

Like letting go of a vine with strong vitality, it takes root and sprouts in the heart, gradually twines and wraps tightly.

He... is he still gone?

In the past two years, I have less and less thought of "going back".

Li Fengran fell asleep, and He Yu listened to the long breathing sound in his ears, and opened his eyes. After getting used to the dim light, this was not an obstacle. He raised his hand, and the palm covered Li Fengran's side face, with the pulp of his fingers lightly Gently pressed the corner of his eye.

Just after crying, the reddish eye ends are easy to arouse pity from others.

the third time.he thought so.

After a long time, He Yu closed his eyes and fell into a sleep.

Li Fengran's eyelashes trembled slightly.

Can he... also look forward to it.

The New Year's Day chorus program has been set, and the class uniform has also arrived. It is a white shirt. The young girls and teenagers wear white shirts, clean, youthful and beautiful, which is very suitable for their age.

Everyone got the clothes and tried them on together. The size fits well, and there is no problem.

The day of the formal evening performance is coming soon.

In the dormitory, the teenagers put on their white shirts to tidy up. He Yu buttoned them up and pulled out the ties on the side. The boys in the shirts wore ties, while the girls wore bow ties. Not many boys at this age could wear ties, so they helped each other.

He Yu tied his tie and asked Li Fengran to come over, and passed the tie through his neckline. Li Fengran's small and white chin was raised.

Wearing a white shirt, he has a noble young man's air, his small face is delicate, and when he grows up, his facial features are less childish than before, and he has grown into a beautiful boy.

The hem is tucked into the trousers, framing a slim waist that needs to be worn with a belt or it will fall down.

He Yu thought, too thin.

When he was playing last time, he almost knocked him to the ground. He was so light, as if he had no weight.

After tying the tie, He Yu brushed Li Fengran's chin with his fingertips, and Li Fengran looked up at him.

He Yu, who was wearing a white shirt, showed a sense of coldness even more. His long and narrow eyes were indifferent, under the high bridge of his nose, and his thin lips were lightly pursed into a straight line. His hair was trimmed today, and his refreshing youthful look was particularly attractive.

His Adam's apple is huge.

Li Fengran remembered something, and his eyes began to wander.

The rumors on the Internet don't seem to be all false.

He Yu tapped his chin with his fingertips.

"Very smooth." He heard He Yu say.

Li Fengran reached out to touch He Yu's chin, "You don't have a beard either."

He Yu raised his head and dodged back for a while, took off the coat at the side and put it on, and threw the coat on top of Li Fengran's head, covering his head.

Since that night last Saturday, the two have returned to normal, or rather, closer, and the invisible barrier has disappeared.

Preparations for the party began in the auditorium in the afternoon. When it officially started, the students gathered in the auditorium, sitting one class at a time.

The weather is cold, the girls are wearing short skirts, and they have put on the bare-legged magic weapon. At the moment, they are covering their legs with coats. The boys are wearing long trousers, so just putting on a coat is enough to keep warm.

The school leaders were sitting in the front row. Li Fengran was a little sleepy as the class programs went by. He leaned on He Yu's shoulder. The environment was lively, and group activities were the easiest to mobilize people's emotions.

The host and male partner on stage.

Not long after, it was almost their turn.

He Yu grabbed Li Fengran's wrist and got up, Li Fengran followed behind him in a daze.

"Take off your coat." He Yu said.

"Huh?" Li Fengran didn't hear clearly.

He Yu simply reached out, unzipped his jacket, and threw the clothes aside.

The stripping of the clothes was very smooth and neat, and it was not the first time that he had done such a thing.

They lined up to go on stage, He Yu and Li Fengran one behind the other, after taking the stage, He Yu stood behind Li Fengran, the beam of light hit them, and the buzzing sound from the audience fell silent.

He Yu looked at the dim light below the stage, his eyes fell, and when he saw Li Feng, a strand of hair curled up around his neck.

When did it become warped?

Kind of cute.

He pursed his lips and gave a faint smile.

The music started, and Jiang Fanlu stood in front to direct, and with her movements, the chorus began.

He Yu raised his eyelids and opened his lips to make a sound.

But after a while, his eyes fell, and fell on the strand of hair again.

I can't take my eyes off of it...

Warped.

The song ended and the lights dimmed.

Li Fengran let out a breath, and then felt a chill on the back of his neck, and the person behind him brushed his hair with his fingertips. He opened his eyes wide in the dark, and heard He Yu's voice from the noisy environment.

"Your hair is up."

-

"Where's Li Fengran?" He Yu came back from the toilet, and glanced at the empty place.

After the show ended, some students in the class went to other classes for social networking. This kind of group activity is the best time to meet new friends. Of course, the active adolescents will not miss this opportunity.

"Oh, he and Jiang Fanlu were called by the teacher to help backstage." The classmate next to him replied.

He Yu walked backstage.

There are sundries in the backstage, and there are a few dressing tables. There is no one here at the moment, and the long dark red curtain beside it hangs down. Li Fengran puts down his things, and when he passes by the dressing table, he pauses and looks sideways at the back of his neck. He raised his hand to cover the lock of hair and smoothed it.

I remembered the touch just now.

With a bit of coolness that makes people's skin crawl, he has a strong sense of presence, just like him.

He glanced intently, and there was an extra figure in the mirror.

"Li Fengran." Jiang Fanlu asked, "What did you mean by what you just said?"

——"Don't bother He Yu anymore."

Li Fengran said this to her just now.

Li Fengran glanced at her in the mirror, pursed his lips and said with a smile: "It's nothing interesting, I just think that my troubles should be solved by myself, right?"

"You—" Jiang Fanlu said, "You don't consider He Yu a friend at all, otherwise why do you always do these things behind his back?"

"What?" Li Fengran's smile faded a bit.

"Girls who like He Yu have a good relationship with you in the end." Jiang Fanlu said, "Are you jealous of him?"

Li Fengran: "It has nothing to do with you."

"you you……"

"What? Do you want to say that I'm hypocritical?" After the smile on Li Fengran's face disappeared, his brows and eyes were a bit gloomy, and his eyes were somewhat stern like He Yu's.

"Jealous? Ha, how could it be?" Li Fengran's tone was gentle, and his expression was indifferent.

"Look at his eyes..." She paused, and in an instant, the pictures in her mind were connected one by one, and the sense of disobedience was properly explained.

"You...you won't..." Another guess surfaced to Jiang Fanlu, she covered her mouth and widened her eyes.

"Hush—" Li Fengran put his index finger on his lips, "It's nothing, don't guess."

"Ah, I'm a little hungry." Li Fengran stretched his limbs, saw her shocked look in the mirror, seemed to find it interesting, raised his lips and smiled, "He is very good, he has good grades, and he is also a good person. It's indifferent and unapproachable, but it's actually very soft—if you like it, you can try it, and I will hinder you...because...I like it too."

Jiang Fanlu came back to her senses, "How is that possible!? You are all men, are you crazy?"

Li Fengran snorted, neither denying nor admitting.

Crazy, already crazy.

"Aren't you afraid that he will know?" Jiang Fanlu asked through gritted teeth.

Li Fengran jokingly said: "I'm afraid, so you have to keep it a secret, otherwise, even if you are a girl, I won't let you go."

"Impossible..." Jiang Fanlu murmured.

Li Fengran patted the ashes on his body, turned around and walked out, but when he passed the red curtain, he suddenly stopped in place.

There was still a performance in the auditorium outside, and there was a faint sound.

The slender boy stood behind the curtain, with a coat on his hand, his upper body was hidden in the darkness, and he stood there for an unknown amount of time.

Li Fengran's hands and feet were cold, his expression froze, his heartbeat seemed to have stopped for a moment, his pupils constricted, his hands clenched into fists, his eyes were full of defenseless astonishment.

The light seemed to separate the two.

After growing up, Li Fengran seldom had the emotion of fear, but now, he really experienced it, standing in place without moving.

He was afraid, and it was different from the previous fear.

It was the first time he faced the isolation and oppression of a group of children, and the first time he faced a crazy woman... He was afraid, but that didn't make him feel the emotions he has now.

It feels like it's all... over.

How much did he hear?Li Fengran looked into He Yu's eyes, completely unable to judge.

It's all over.

finished?

It shouldn't have ended so embarrassingly. The scene of the confession should have been at a better time than being seen by him in such a... embarrassing side in this small backstage.

The dark night enveloped him like a shackle on him.

"Come to see you, I saw you guys chatting, so I didn't go in." He Yu broke the silence, "Put on your clothes, it's cold."

He handed out the clothes in his hands.

Li Fengran stared blankly at the coat.

Didn't you hear it?

Or just here?

By the way, He Yu has always misunderstood that he likes Jiang Fanlu, so did you think they were alone just now?

Li Fengran's mind was in a mess, He Yu made a slogan, he reached for his clothes, put them on casually, and looked up at He Yu.

"Is there anything else?" He Yu glanced inside.

Li Fengran shook his head.

He Yu: "Then let's go."

He turned and walked outside.

Didn't you hear it... While relieved, I was also a little disappointed.

He looked at He Yu's back and followed.

The two didn't go back to the auditorium, Li Fengran followed He Yu, his mind was empty after the nervousness, and He Yu slowed down a bit.

Li Fengran walked up to his side, his eyes fell on his hand, he reached out to pull the corner of his clothes, and asked him if he heard it, but he didn't dare, cautiously, hesitating, before He Yu noticed it. , hurriedly put his hands back in place.

Then, the fingertips hanging by his side were wrapped, Li Fengran's eyes came back to his senses instantly, his fingertips moved, it was not an illusion, he lowered his head, and saw the back of He Yu's hand wrapped around his fingertips, so thin Clear, with a little warmth in the palm.

He Yu raised his hand and held his whole hand, "Walk so slowly, are you waiting for me to hold you?"

Li Fengran: "..."

His eyes drifted away, and his heart was still empty, "No..."

"It's a bit cold." He Yu said,

Li Fengran: "Just now... the wind blows."

He squeezed He Yu's hand back with an extremely light, hard-to-detect force, his Adam's apple rolled, his mouth was tightly closed, unable to utter a single word.

say something... say something...

"Where are we going?" he asked.

He Yu: "The canteen."

"Huh?" Li Fengran looked at him sideways, "What are you going to do at the canteen?"

He Yu tilted his head, his black eyes looked a little pale, but looked a little deep: "Aren't you hungry?"

Li Fengran: "I..."

His words stopped on his lips, the city wall that had just been built by his brain collapsed, and a large-scale explosion was taking place. His breathing was stagnant, and he raised his eyes to meet He Yu's eyes.

heard it.

He Yu heard everything.